Post by Deleted on May 10, 2010 12:23:07 GMT -5
Hello everyone~
I think you all must cringe when you see my posts - they are sooo depressing!!
Anyway.. little JuniorBurger died early this morning. His mother was standing over him, licking his little head and mooing softly to him. It was the most pitiful thing. She keeps looking for him and looking at me as if to say....where did he go? I brushed her down and cried with her. We are all so sad. I guess I feel sooo badly because when I knew 'something wasn't quite right' last week...I didn't know what it was or whwat to do. He didn't look sick, no fever nothing. Then he went down so fast that I guess it was too late by the time he got the antibiotic on saturday. I am just feeling like a failure to realize what all I don't know. We've only had Charlotte since Oct. and we've been through learning how to milk, drying off, birth of the calf, dreadful ketosis and the worst winter on record in 30 years here. and now we lose our calf at 3 months old. I thought that nursing calves didn't really get sick and so it's a puzzle to me. I know you all can't help now....I guess I need a shoulder to cry on. I just hate that he suffered and I feel like it's my fault for being so ignorant and probably stupid for even having a cow at all.
Now I suppose it's time to regroup and think aout our options. Go on with no calf sharing (which I was looking foward to OAD milking soon) - Charlotte's giving over 5 gallons a day so I'll be doing TAD for awhile- look around for a foster calf? bottle feed it or try to get her to take it. I think she would do okay...she is a great mother and loves on the dog even so maybe she would accept another. I don't know...I just am sad.
Thanks everyone for listening -
I think you all must cringe when you see my posts - they are sooo depressing!!
Anyway.. little JuniorBurger died early this morning. His mother was standing over him, licking his little head and mooing softly to him. It was the most pitiful thing. She keeps looking for him and looking at me as if to say....where did he go? I brushed her down and cried with her. We are all so sad. I guess I feel sooo badly because when I knew 'something wasn't quite right' last week...I didn't know what it was or whwat to do. He didn't look sick, no fever nothing. Then he went down so fast that I guess it was too late by the time he got the antibiotic on saturday. I am just feeling like a failure to realize what all I don't know. We've only had Charlotte since Oct. and we've been through learning how to milk, drying off, birth of the calf, dreadful ketosis and the worst winter on record in 30 years here. and now we lose our calf at 3 months old. I thought that nursing calves didn't really get sick and so it's a puzzle to me. I know you all can't help now....I guess I need a shoulder to cry on. I just hate that he suffered and I feel like it's my fault for being so ignorant and probably stupid for even having a cow at all.
Now I suppose it's time to regroup and think aout our options. Go on with no calf sharing (which I was looking foward to OAD milking soon) - Charlotte's giving over 5 gallons a day so I'll be doing TAD for awhile- look around for a foster calf? bottle feed it or try to get her to take it. I think she would do okay...she is a great mother and loves on the dog even so maybe she would accept another. I don't know...I just am sad.
Thanks everyone for listening -