Post by Leimana on Oct 12, 2010 13:51:58 GMT -5
no baby yet. I totally agree about going with the heart. My husband last night came to hang out with me in the barn. He looked at Bhumi and said that she seemed to be unstable in her walking! I see her all day so I didnt notice it. But he is totally right. She is more waddly and her back end is very loose. The pins the vulva and her tail are so loose!I hope none of you are thinking I am being intrusive or obsessive in living in the barn waiting for her to calve. I really dont think my cow minds. If something causes her alarm she comes to me and stands close. She seems to really take comfort from my presence. I give her massage when she lies down and she absolutely goes into trance when I do this! It is just what I have been needing lately. I have a temporary room of my own, the kids have been getting to sleep with dad ( they want to sleep with us all the time but.......) and have been loving the extra cuddle time. I get to get over my fear of the dark ( walking back and forth from the barn to the house, YES I am afraid of the dark. Dont ask, it is totally illogical I know, but I still get heeby jeebies ) I feel more empowered. I designed and priced my loft, went to the lumber yard picked out and loaded my lumber by myself and helped my husband put it up. Then I painted it and made it a room of its own. I have been asking for a bit of space for myself ( 4 of us in under 500 sq ft) and now I can sit quietly and pray and meditate in the late evening and early morning by myself with no disturbances. This time has been more about my cow giving birth. It has been about seeing how important my relationship with my cow is to me, how much I appreciate my family for supporting me in stretching out and doing something for myself, watching and learning how unselfish my children can be as they sit for hours while my cow chews cud and they never stop brushing flies from her body. I have spent time on a new part of my property and I see how beautiful my little bit of 3 acres is at all times of the day. And this little page of "pacing the barn" has turned into a diary of my experience. Thank you for cheering me on everyone!